Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Baby on the Brain

Hawaii is looming in the near future.  Next month marks our 5 year wedding anniversary and this year the husband is turning 30, so we made the decision to go to Hawaii for a week.  What a decision that was.  

At the time I was a little arrogant, maybe a little too cocky for my own good.  Our 1 year old, my sweet baby girl, was brought up multiple times.  Can we leave her?  Do we want to leave her?  SURE!  Why not?  I can do it.  I'm no pansy, I'm a strong Martha Stewart type...well, wanna be anyway.  

Thinking back I don't know what came over me because right now it's total fear.  I have only been away from that sweet face for two separate nights-total.  What am I going to do?  I can barely make it to the mall by myself without having to turn around because I see a little girl that looks like her.  I feel empty and alone if there is no one there for me to take care of.  A week in Hawaii could be the worst thing that has ever happened to me.  Who knew?

Blue Hawaii by janruss.


  1. Okay any blog where the person refers to themselves as NO PANSY is ultimately going to be my FAVORITE blog.

    You have earned a well-deserved break my friend. It's going to be tough, obvi, but dude...we are talking Anniversary in HAWAIIIIII !!!!!!!!!!! Get a grip!!!!!!

    And just teach your mama how to skype :)